Me, Myself and God

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It is just Me Myself and God!

“Isolation is required for a person to grow and discover themselves and what they want to do with their lives” – Jordan Peterson

For the longest time I hated isolation and being alone and never having people around me. It was torture. At the time I felt like I was the problem.

The horrible person people were avoiding and hiding from. The uninteresting and annoying one. The embarrassing one that spoke too much and too loud and couldn’t control herself when around people.

It was a painful and daunting realization I came to about myself although false, at the time I believed it to be true.

Later on, as life progressed, I realized why I kept being alone and isolated and locked away from the world. God wanted to build me up and bring me to a place where I fully and utterly trusted Him. Seeing that He was all I needed.

However, because I was failing to learn what I needed to learn, the season of solitude continued.

Me: God when can I go out and be surrounded by people and be seen and be known.

God: During the growth process of a plant/tree, the seed is hidden in the soil…. It is not yet time for you to shine or be seen. Your time is coming…

I pondered on what God had shown me. At first I didn’t get it, then I realized two things about what He had said..

Firstly He showed me the season I was in.

Secondly, He showed that my growth process had begun but not fully. I have indeed come a long way, though I couldn’t see it at the time.

Recently I realized something about myself. I love my solitude. I love being alone, I love my own space. I can go months without having any form of human contact/connection. It took a while for me to get here.

God has kept me isolated so far to begin my growth process. He has planted me underneath the soil to be obscured from the views of others so that my purpose can begin to shape me into the person He created me to be..

The person that He has seen as His golden star, His peculiar treasure and gift to the world.

All I needed this whole time was God.

In times of need and desperation God has used people as resources to come to my aid. There was a time I was in a precarious situation and all I did was call on the Holy Spirit and the situation was solved quickly without stray bullets or blood shed.

God has been showing me that He is right beside me and all around me. I am not alone. I am with God. He is with me everyday and every step of the way.

So for now until further notice…. It is just me, myself and God..