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Dear God
I seem to be doing something wrong
Nothing has changed!
Not in my environment and certainly not in me.
I feel your disappointment
I feel you looking down at me and shaking your head.
Or maybe this is just my imagination.
But something has got to give!
You have told me that you want to see your refelction in me.
I have definitely misunderstood the assignment.
As I have failed you and myself greatly!!!
With unchecked emotions and uncontrolled anger.
And the stubbornness of holding on to unmemorable moments and unforgiving situations.
I am tired of me… I am tired of the outcomes and same results.
I am tired of the way I am and shouldn’t be.
I am tired of the lack of change
I think too lowly of myself
I need your help
I cannot do this without your help
I need your guidance
I do not want to miss my place in this world, or in you just because I refuse to grow.
I am done being a babe stuck suckling her mom’s breasts.
Help me Lord
Help me to become the person you created me to be.
The person I struggle to become
From my lips to your ears
Yours truly and forevermore
SOT
